I need to change my attitude.
But I was also thinking about 'he who loses his life shall gain it', that I should not care for the worldly life, there is no life outside Christ.
The worldly cares are affecting me, and they shouldn't. I want death for the worldly desires, the flesh. To crucify the flesh. But sometimes I think about my family, building a family, fellowship in God...
I lose sight. Like our people of the past, I need to learn more about that.
"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God,"
His purpose. I need discipline of mind.

