Hello from Texas

[viking]

Staropramen,

The first time that I was in the company of only Whites that thought like me it was overwhelming.

My video from that trip;

It looks like it was quite the experience. The glowing cross against the black of night is beautiful and is metaphorical of today's world. I have yet to encounter a fellow CI follower in person. I haven't even come across a white nationalist yet.
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Viking,

And being a permanent on-site contract, this meant I had no clients lined up - so, breach of contract plus no clients = no cash, another case of sitting around and watching savings & C disappear.

If you're unable to find clients in your area then perhaps you'd be better off moving once you get on your feet. Besides, it sounds like the region you're in isn't exactly white.

Some help offered by my brother about 3 weeks ago, he offered to pay for my store costs for about 3 months, so that's something - however I received the usual lecture about "being positive" - he asserts that I am always "negative" - and that if a situation cannot be changed then it's no use "getting emotional" about it.

Many of our race would have nothing to do with their own family members if they found out that they're CI. Thankfully, your brother is helping you out. It's easy to say to stay positive when your own life is going well. You can't always ignore emotions either. I often get reprimanded for being negative as well. I think your situation would get to anyone no matter how strong their faith is. What helps me though is to always remember that Yahweh is in control and that His will will be done no matter what.

A nominal church goer, he made me feel worse than I did before even contacting him - despite letting him know of my desperate situation, he did his usual thing of taking days to respond to my email. Then I had to contact his wife informing her that I was not able to get into contact him, after which she then replied via email just confirming his details again!

Some people would just rather not get involved. Perhaps because you don't belong to their "church"? Or because they believe loving their neighbor involves just being nice/accepting towards everyone and occasionally giving to a church or nfp organization. When it comes to aiding individuals, however, you can forget it. Again, they'd rather not be involved.

I was relying on this arrangement, and planned to move out this week. Then this weekend, when trying to make an arrangement to move only a few valuables to my brother, I got an SMS which said that I could no longer stay at my "friend's" place!

It seems he didn't have the gall to explain his reasoning in person. Odd, though, that he said he didn't want you on the streets and then to kick you out two weeks later.

I managed to then contact an old acquaintance, a minister in a Dutch reformed church, who then said that they may be able to help me with accommodation - at least there's that then?

I truly hope this works out for you. If not, then perhaps you can stay with your brother for a time? Of course, that depends on your relationship with him.

You know, I wonder, is it NORMAL for these "christians" to be such back-stabbers?

It depends. I just think people like to keep to themselves and avoid getting involved. I guess seeing your situation scares them by showing them that life isn't always kind. They're fine viewing hardships at a distance though. Also, the prosperity gospel might play some role as well. They probably know your beliefs and equate your situation with punishment from Providence.

I'm Internationally certified to carry out assessments on Corporate Organization's Environmental, Health and Safety, Quality, Energy and other systems.

I also have a very broad experience in a lot of engineering fields, including Telecoms and IT.

With so many certifications and years of experience, I'm certain you can find employment somewhere. If you haven't already, I would start looking at job postings on company websites or on job boards. Don't limit yourself to just SA either.

The best thing about having income RIGHT NOW, is the power.
The power to just walk away.

The power to get my own place, to pay my own way, to cut off communications from all those "christians" who carry the name of God on their sleeves and refuse to show love for their brother.

Yahweh will provide. Prayer also works wonders, in my experience, even if the answer isn't always immediate.

Hey, I'm not gay or anything - I don't want to "complain" as they say.
I say that if you are in a TOUGH SITUATION you have no choice but to ask around if anyone can help you.

What else am I supposed to do?

Ha, I'm sure there are many who would be way more vocal if they were in your position. Gays usually obnoxiously complain about trivial things, from what I've observed.
Exactly. It may take a lot of asking but eventually you will receive aid.

Let us know how your situation fares.

Yahweh bless

Hello Aechos - -

<<With so many certifications and years of experience, I'm certain you can find employment somewhere. If you haven't already, I would start looking at job postings on company websites or on job boards. Don't limit yourself to just SA either. >>

I've wanted to get out of this country years ago, for obvious reasons- The biggest problem is that I only have a South African passport- I would prefer to work in USA or Australia, or maybe Europe, but effectively I have no "green card" - I even took part in the GREEN CARD LOTTERY for 10 years- the 10 years is almost up.

I don't mean to paint my brother in a completely bad light, but I simply can't understand the attitude? I haven't done anything wrong, I'm just trying to survive- why else would I go to my brother? No choice!
He is one of those who never greets when you get to his place, and he often disappears after he has hit the remote for the automatic gate - then you stand around like an ass in the doorway wondering where he is.
And he accuses me of being "unsociable"

Despite my circumstances, he has not once called to find out if all is OK-

What would you do if your brother arrived at your place and said that he was just about to end up on the street? Would you get all sarcastic and smart-ass about it?

Or would you assure your brother that he could stay at your place if nothing else, even if you have to sleep on the floor in the garage?

I guess after 15 years I still haven't made a breakthrough- maybe my brother get's sick of no-good-news?
Still. it's not that I've done something wrong- I'm not a layabout- overall quite good qualifications but with BEE and Affirmative Action, no permanent post in 15 years.

Thanks for your comments.

There is now a possibility of some contract work with a company, which came through today, but nothing definite.

On Friday, I see the minister from the Dutch Reformed Church, who may be able to contribute toward accommodation.

We'll see- Regards Viking

[viking]

Hello Viking, I don't know you ...but I have been in similar situations, we are in hard-times at the moment too, but not as bad as what you are going through. Seems everyone is really fighting these days. I really hope your situation improves, I know sometimes all you have is your faith in God, all you have is God.

It is getting difficult to find secure employment in my country, all the non-whites have never had it better while whites are battling.

Hello Joe

Thanks for your comments-

<<Seems everyone is really fighting these days>>
That's about it, as Christ said: Think not I come to bring peace: I bring a sword - - - to set brother aganist brother etc

This week is critical, end of the month and payments looming- if I don't sort out some kind of income, I'm toast

Regards, Viking

[Aechos]

Viking,

I hope things have finally started to turned around for you. Any word on your meeting with the Dutch Reform minister or the possible contract lead?

I've wanted to get out of this country years ago, for obvious reasons- The biggest problem is that I only have a South African passport- I would prefer to work in USA or Australia, or maybe Europe, but effectively I have no "green card" - I even took part in the GREEN CARD LOTTERY for 10 years- the 10 years is almost up

With the amount of third world immigrants around here you would think that they are just passing green cards out left and right to anyone who asks, save European immigrants. I've only met two Brits, one German, one Frenchman, and three Russians compared to the couple thousand of nonwhite immigrants I've encountered.

What would you do if your brother arrived at your place and said that he was just about to end up on the street? Would you get all sarcastic and smart-ass about it?

I can't say since my brother (half) is a halfbreed. I think your brother is trying to distance himself from you due to his likely desire to distance himself from your racial beliefs. What actions he is doing for you probably stems from the fact that he is your brother. Imagine how you would treat your brother if he was a trotskyist jew-lover. You probably wouldn't want to associate with him. I think he might view you in a similar manner, with C.I. being the "radical" element. That's my guess anyways.

Though you shouldn't write him off completely as there is always the chance he will come to understand.

[viking]

Viking,

I hope things have finally started to turned around for you. Any word on your meeting with the Dutch Reform minister or the possible contract lead?

I've wanted to get out of this country years ago, for obvious reasons- The biggest problem is that I only have a South African passport- I would prefer to work in USA or Australia, or maybe Europe, but effectively I have no "green card" - I even took part in the GREEN CARD LOTTERY for 10 years- the 10 years is almost up

With the amount of third world immigrants around here you would think that they are just passing green cards out left and right to anyone who asks, save European immigrants. I've only met two Brits, one German, one Frenchman, and three Russians compared to the couple thousand of nonwhite immigrants I've encountered.

What would you do if your brother arrived at your place and said that he was just about to end up on the street? Would you get all sarcastic and smart-ass about it?

I can't say since my brother (half) is a halfbreed. I think your brother is trying to distance himself from you due to his likely desire to distance himself from your racial beliefs. What actions he is doing for you probably stems from the fact that he is your brother. Imagine how you would treat your brother if he was a trotskyist jew-lover. You probably wouldn't want to associate with him. I think he might view you in a similar manner, with C.I. being the "radical" element. That's my guess anyways.

Though you shouldn't write him off completely as there is always the chance he will come to understand.

Hello Aechos - - the latest is that I need to contact someone on Monday - I'm becoming skilled at ALL THINGS now - even begging, I guess - - - you have to work at this as well, and practice patience - - -
and I still don't know what to expect -

This is the longest I've been without any work in this 15 year period. It's not getting better.

By the way, Aechos means "without sound" - what's the story behind that?

Viking

[Aechos]

Just hang in there Viking, things will eventually get better.

(Heb 13:5-6) for He has said: "By no means would I leave you, nor in any way would I forsake you."
6, So that courageously we are to say: "Yahweh is a helper to me, and I will not fear what man may do to me."

I wish there was a cool story behind my username but there isn't. I just picked it at random among some ancient Greek words. I'd much rather use my real name but I would prefer to avoid the repercussions, namely the loss of job opportunities.

Keep us updated. I wish you the best and will continue to pray for you.

[viking]

Just hang in there Viking, things will eventually get better.

(Heb 13:5-6) for He has said: "By no means would I leave you, nor in any way would I forsake you."
6, So that courageously we are to say: "Yahweh is a helper to me, and I will not fear what man may do to me."

I wish there was a cool story behind my username but there isn't. I just picked it at random among some ancient Greek words. I'd much rather use my real name but I would prefer to avoid the repercussions, namely the loss of job opportunities.

Keep us updated. I wish you the best and will continue to pray for you.

<< I wish you the best and will continue to pray for you.>>
Thanks for this;
One can have a lot of doubts- especially when you are trying to do the right thing in your life, and things just seem to get worse- of course, in South Africa the white male is despised, even though many will not admit it.

It seems the Dutch Reformed church will be able to offer some help, but of course funds are limited everywhere, and I'm not even a member of that church- I did however have a very fruitful discussion with a minister yesterday - I think there are at least some "main-stream" ministers out there who are quite good when it comes to New Testament principles- many do not see a clear Old Testament connection, but of course in SA the Dutch Ref church was always very strong, and had supported apartheid very strongly - a lot of that is gone, and replaced by guilt feelings, but some strength still remains - I think there are still a few sincere christians in the Dutch Ref, a lot of the other churches have become completely liberal with a "everything goes" approach, ie we are all the same.

But I was quite amazed at the minister's professional and sincere approach to my situation.

Hoping, even suspecting that things may turn around in the next month - - -

Regards
Viking