Now that I'm following science and history also - I'm seeing the bigger picture. I just can't believe that I was raised around everyone telling me that nonwhites were my brothers and sisters and to love everyone, etc. I remember having a crush on some Hmong girl from 4th - 8th grade and being envious of black people because they were "so cool". I used to listen to gangster rap because I thought that it would make me look cool with the negroes.
I remember begging my dad to buy me those "thug" pants in 4th grade to look more like a negro. Imagine how insane it is that it's the exact opposite of what I thought it was. In 8th grade I asked my White teacher if I could pass for a "White person" in the 50's and she thought that I was joking when she said "Of course!". It's hilarious, actually. All the people who had a problem with me are actually the bad seed and not the other way around.

P.S What does it mean by everlasting shame. Does that mean people will always be sad in the afterlife (doesn't God wipe away every tear?) or is it more about some social status?

