by Aechos » Sun Aug 03, 2014 10:44 pm
Thank you all for your advice. Getting some feedback on this issue really helps a lot. It's nice to finally talk to someone about this. This whole situation just infuriates me. I feel like I'm either always filled with rage or depressed. My only solace is when the beast is away or I'm away from it. Just seeing its protruding face and slanted eyes pisses me off. Not to mention its shrill, nasally voice.
When I say that it's going to affect me in the future I mean, besides causing a rift in my family, it might cause legal issues. My parents in their will have left the guardianship of the beast with me. I believe that my inheritance is tied to this provision as well. Screw that, I say. I would rather die than raise it. It's not worth any amount of money.
Staropramen, my parents are aware of my beliefs but I believe they have come to tolerate them. I have, for the most part, convinced them of truth regarding the jews and other mongrels. My father seems more open to these viewpoints while my mother believes hatred is wrong. However, they seem to abhor the thought that their pet monkey won't be accepted at Christ's return.
By the way, I really admire that you were able to place Yahweh first and put away that bastard. Few men would have had the fortitude to do as you did.
Nayto, I have zero emotional attachments to the beast. I hate it and the feeling is mutual. Severing ties with it will be a relief. I wouldn't recommend adoption at all unless he and his wife cannot conceive. You never know what you are getting even with a seemingly white baby. If you can't dissuade your friend for racial reasons, you can at least have him look into all the adoption horror stories. Also, adopting some mongrel makes you look self-righteous. Families that do draw stares from nearly everyone.
Joe, I would love to do that but they would sooner disown me than abandon it. Imagine, they would have to face the backlash from other family members, friends, and society, which I highly doubt they would be willing to do. Perhaps when I'm gone and they're raising the beast by itself they'll see the she-devil for what she truly is. As of now the beast doesn't respect them much at all.
NicoChristian, I am trying. It's not so much as finding the strength but rather finding a means to leave. The hard part will be forsaking my family. It would be my entire family too, as they have all been enamored by the beast. I truly love my family and enjoy their company but since they will not repent then I am better off on my own. I wish they did love their heritage as I do but instead they have spat upon our ancestors' beliefs and sacrifices.