Attending a brick and mortar church is something that I miss but what can I do? They are all perverted by race-mixers and blind, arrogant fools that refuse to be corrected. Praise Yahweh for this site!
Here I am, home again ... from church. My husband has just gotten home from church. Because I seldom go to church because of the perversions, I am labeled heretical. I am not honoring the Scriptures to "not forsake the gathering of yourselves together." I can talk to my husband about not race-mixing, but he feels, although he is not at ease with it, that I carry it too far. It is easier to speak in context of the blacks ... when it comes to race-mixing.
The church my husband attends is not large, and, because it is reformed, there are few that attend that are of color. From my observation, that is just the way it is in reformed churches. My oldest son attends a reformed church, and there are possibly two black families in it, and a few families that are something else, perhaps Hispanic. Everyone there loves every color ... and the children are proud to hold the newest babies of color when they get an opportunity. (Baby-holding is very important ... that you get to hold, at some point, every new baby that is born.) It is very difficult to attend either of these churches, but the latter is more difficult because it is a Family Integrated Church, and they have potlucks every Sunday after service where everyone mixes and mingles. I love the atmosphere on the whole, but it is a small church, so it is not easy to always escape who may bump into you. One family has just adopted a little hispanic girl, and another is adopting black babies.
Yesterday I heard a statistic that I am not sure about, that .4% of marriages in our country are blacks and whites. It seems I see a higher percentage, but perhaps these folks are not married ... or perhaps a woman with a black baby is merely babysitting ... perhaps it is wishful thinking on my part.
I found it utterly abhorrent when I learned that Doug Phillips (now defrocked of Vision Forum fame, son of the late Howard Phillips) was promoting the adoption of black babies (Jamaican, I believe, after a devastating hurricane). I heard him with my own ears ... and this among homeschooling families!!! who, for the most part, are white in the Christian circles I am familiar with. I believe I read somewhere that Doug Phillips may have Jewish blood in him ... but he certainly was a grand orator ... and he fooled a lot of us. I have been actually on the alert for something like this to happen ... his defrocking ... if he truly has Jewish blood ... although it can happen to anyone.
The homeschooling movement is a far cry from what it was when I began teaching my children. One needs plenty of discernment at a convention when buying curriculum. I am grateful that my choices were few, and I had to dig a little deeper than some to manage what was taught. (I was not CI at the time. Unfortunately, I learned too late about CI to have much of an influence over my children. In my state of ignorance, though, I was able to have a chat with my daughter at one point, who worked with debaters from Annapolis. She was not considering anything more than friendship, but we did have a conversation that all this male friend could ever be was a friend because of his culture. She agreed!)
I cannot live my life filled with "if only's." When I go back to those places in my life, the regrets, at times, are overwhelming ... so many ... in so many ways I have disappointed God ... and did not realize it at the time ... even though there may have been a nagging in the back of my mind ... but the propaganda worked in part ... I was part of the blind following the blind, and at times I wound up in a ditch of sorts. I can be grateful that I have been married to a nearly 100% Swede ... with a dash of Scotch since 1968. I am not sure how I would ever have handled coming to CI if I had been married to the wrong kind!!! If only my family were on the same page as I am. See ... another "if only."
Lamenting over past sins ... I wish that alone could keep one out of sin, but we are, shamefully, sinful creatures. I see now see race-mixing for what it is. The Judeo-Christian churches do confuse the terms fornication and adultery ... ALL the time. Is it any wonder our nation is moving in the direction of chaos? The public schools are a mess ... but the caucasian parents who send their children there, by and large, will be held so accountable ... for I can only lump most of them in the group who will deserve to have a millstone hung around their necks for what they are doing to their children. Those children can only escape by the grace of Yahweh ... our almighty God.
